Mischief and Control

SNOW
The saying is that when it rains it pours. Does that apply to snow? We have had a bunch and I am ready for spring! Yesterday I go out of work at 12 and the roads were already crap. I then couldn’t get a hold of dad and was worried beyond belief but he called about 2:30 when he got home. The kids got out at 12:45 and he couldn’t leave until about 2:00 but he got home safe. We luckily don’t make up snow days so we just get paid time off. NICE! I just stayed home yesterday and chilled at home. This morning I plan to do the same and later Myam and I may try to escape our homes.

WORK
I had a dream (not the MLK type but a real one) that I was at the school and I was with some preschool kids in the Butterfly room. A man in his 40s walked in and sat down in the middle of the room as I went to ask who he was he pulled out a shotgun and began to load it slowly and methodically. He didn’t say a word and I looked at him and said “I will be leaving now.” He just kept on with his loading and I went to the door and asked the 8 children to please line up at the door. 6 immediately came to my side but two continued to play. The man sat calmly and didn’t move. I asked the 2 children to come now to the door and neither one responded. In that moment the man got up and stood there. In my mind I had to decide turn and leave with ones I have or risk them all. I took the kids down the hall as my heart beat out my chest and which felt like it was shattering anyway because I made the choice to leave the 2 behind. I didn’t look back to see if the man was following I just lead the kids down the hall to my Director’s office. I got to her door and she was in conversation and I began to yell “LOCK DOWN.” No words came out I was silent. She just looked at me with a puzzled look and I continued to shout with no words coming out. It was then when I woke up my heart was pounding and tears were in my eyes. My first response was to call my Director but I realized it was 4am and I was in my bed. It took me a half hour to get back to sleep.

I do have to say work has been good. I rewarded my kids with a special treat because they have been on better behavior. We had a party for Ms. Jean and Ms. Cokie this week because they both finished their radiation treatments. So I am not sure what the dream was about.

PAT AND FRANK
I went to see Pat and Frank on Thursday and it was good to hang out and chat with them. Pat of course made a great meal. Frank was having trouble just making it from down stairs to the kitchen. He has lost a lot of weight and is on oxygen. You can see the same energetic man but he just doesn’t have the battery power. We had really good conversation (as we usually do) and I realized tonight how much of Frank there was in Kim. I always saw Pat in her but never Frank, until tonight.

After dinner he had to lie down and put a heating pad on his back. His muscles are weak and breaking down. As he lay there he would interject a Frank like comment as Pat and I took on the bulk of the conversation. Pat and I were talking about my kids and I was telling her about this display I was doing on St. Patrick and I had for fun pictures of famous Patrick’s to post up on the wall. Like Patrick Henry, Patrick Dempsey and Patrick Star (Spongebob’s starfish buddy). I looked over at Frank and his hands were in constant motion, as if he were trying to think and random words kept coming out of his mouth. It made me flash back to when Kim had been awake for three days and was just regurgitating words. No Frank is coherent but and no where near what Kim was but it made me go back there. He finally blurted out “Cleburne”. He told me then of Patrick Cleburne who was an Irish Civil War Major General. He then told Pat to go find his Civil War encyclopedia.

Later on as Frank rested Pat and I talked. She has been wanting me to come get some furniture for a while. I thought it was a small love seat and some end tables but no. It is also a beautiful antique sideboard and vanity. I asked her if she was sure she wanted to get ride of them and she said yes. She is looking to make changes and that is a big deal because she hates change a lot. She said she would rather the go some place she know someone would love to have them. She then added “You can paint, or sell them if you like because I am not one those people who comes over and looks for what I gave to see if it is out.” I would want to pass them on like she did. I love them and I am so honored to have them go into my home.

I left about 11:30 and on my way home had a good cry over nothing and everything. I feel so much for Pat and I am not saying Frank will be gone tomorrow but it is hard right now.

ONLINE POKER
I have become addicted to online poker. I play it all the time and I am so glad it is play money. You start out at 1000 chips and I have won up to 25,000 and now am back down to only 5,000. If that was real money I would be cashing out but since it is play I will let it ride.

TV
I have to say I don’t know if I agree with the winner I Project Runway. Survivor is cracking me up with all the power players getting voted off. I really like Eli Stone. American Idol I don’t have a clear front runner but I am glad the voting has gone the way it has and I want Chickezie gone.

BOOKS
I just bought new books to read, Friday Night Knitting Club and A New Earth

POLITICS
Hillary won Ohio and Texas. WOW!

All in all it has been a good week. It has been a very emotional week with the dream and the visit with Pat and Frank.